Today I want to talk about something almost everyone hates, but needs, which is CHANGE.
Change is the only constant thing in our lives and I want to share it per my own experience on CHANGE.
Years ago when I started working I was posted to a Unit with bed capacity not more than twelve (12) which was less busy, less stressful and little need to work under pressure. I could even sit and monitor my clients, my scrubs were always neat and straightened, and my movements were just majestically. The whole environment was indeed calm and quiet that I could even take a break to take lunch or supper. Then after six (6) months there was a notice informing everyone that there were going to be changes meaning I could be stationed at a different unit.
I was alarmed a bit because I didn’t want to be changed to a different unit knowing very well how my other colleagues were suffering there. I seriously didn’t want that, didn’t want to get myself dirty or suffer like the others. I begun praying asking God to keep me there since it was a comfort zone for me. Then one day while praying asking God to keep me there, a still small voice said to me, “I can keep you here but tell me, are you happy being here?”. I looked around then it dawned on me that although calm, less stressful, I was not happy being there. I didn’t even like how some staffs did treat me and how I couldn’t exhibit my full potentials. The voice said again and calmly more softly, “Why don’t you let me lead, it may not be where you want to be but where you need to be and I will be with you“.
From that moment my prayer topic changed to “Take the lead, LORD”, and I was moved to sing the song;
“Shepherd of my soul I give you full control wherever you may lead I will follow… be it in a quiet, or by a gentle stream the shepherd of my soul is by my side. Should I face a mighty mountain or a valley dark and deep, the shepherd of my soul is by my side”.
The List was finally in and I was shocked tracing my name to the most stressful and terrible unit in that directorate. In consolation I told myself “its okay someone survived there, I will”. I assumed duty there and it was worst than I thought. Within three (3) months, my weight moved from 60kg to almost 54kg. The pressure was too much that I always got home tired, exhausted, and empty. There were most times my bladder got full and couldn’t visit the washroom but helped others to do so, got thirst and hungry but I needed to serve my clients their own, there was no time to even sit and document what I had done. Times when I got traumatized over losing some clients.
Yet in all I survived, gained all the knowledge that will take someone decades to acquire. I met great and amazing people who appreciated even the little I could offer. I made the best of friends and explored as much as I could. I learnt to work under SERIOUS Pressure, write while walking, defend myself and speak out without fear. Above all I was happy, loved and I knew I was strong enough to face any challenge.
A change can seem as the most terrible thing one can go through in life but after walking through you realize it was the exact thing you needed. A progress in life is a change over, one will forever remain poor if he is too scared to face the challenges and difficulties becoming rich requires. Leaving an abusive and ill relationship may be painful, one may feel the fear of regretting later but a change and moving on will prove to you that you deserved better.
Change is a very painful process, but sometimes we need to move out of our comfort zone, struggle a little so as to get the change we want and deserve. If there was no change in life we would probably only experience Day and never Night or vise versa, but they are all needed to make life better. A change in life mostly moves us to a higher level.
We all need change otherwise a child will forever be a child and never experience adulthood.
A change gives us the opportunity to experience what we have been missing all along.